Miserable life stacks with a impossible stuff

Miserable Miserable !
Miserable life [zzzz]
Exam was gone and time to get results and this is the horrible part of exam ==..
Get a good results but..SO WHAT??
Somehow get those marks are...freaking shit out of sense ==..
But just let it go..lazy to argue with that kind bullshit talks and discussions..
Think of that..makes me want to smash all my things..
Mom always say, " Why you always get 7X ?? Try to get more la!!"
WHAT TO SAY?? JUST ??? "....."
This is screwing me up..
PRESSURES...I satisfy of what I have get with..
I can feel the uncountable pounds of pressure pressing on my shoulders and my mind just freak out..
7X? == JUST SCREW ME LA !!
Trying to get peace..
Last week Sunday, you looked so...beautiful and indifferent from the others day..
Maybe it is just a delusional for the others but to me..you totally looked..AWESOME !
We just like...friends but..got nothing to say or to chat about..
Somehow, I wait you to online at MSN but..you rarely to online..
90minutes same class with you and sit back of you..
Observing and reading every movement of you , even though it seems like I'm a pervert..but..it's what a guy react if you found a girl you're interesting..
Different form ; feeling a far cross of distance..==
Feeling myself just like a ...little naive kid talking with a protective sister...
She is totally perfect [ maybe I haven't discover her con's] but I know not everything is perfect..
People say I fell in love with her but I didn't answer..
It is just making a friend with a female...
It is just impossible to deal with a Form5 girl....
Impossible...

Love, No boundaries ??

Your hair is black but fill with a bit brown color at every degree when I see you. Your posture is elegant but fill with a little of open. You wear contact lens but somehow you wear spectacles. You look so gorgeous and nice and simple when the day you wear lens. It doesn't mean that you look not nice when you wear spectacles. Instead, it looks mature and pretty well too. Do not ever judge a book by appearance ?? Guess so. Maybe, just not enough of communication ?? Even chit-chat, got nothing to chat about. Different level talks different things. Just friend. A.......not very close friend. A not very close female friend. I'm just giving myself a tidal waves - it is impossible. It will leave after 3~4 months. So, need not to worry so much. And, telling yourself it could not be. We have a boundary/demarcation between each. Bluffing ~

The All-American Rejects - I Wanna

I never thought that I was so blind
I can finally see the truth
It's me for you

Tonight you can't imagine that I'm by your side
'cause it's never gonna be the truth
so far for you

But can you hear me say
Don't throw me away
there's no way out
I gotta hold you somehow

I wanna, I wanna, I wanna touch you
you wanna touch me too
Everyday, but all I have is time
Our love's a perfect rhyme

I wanna, I wanna, I wanna touch you
you wanna touch me too
every way and when they set me free
Just put your hands on me

Take everything that I know you'll break
and I give my life away so far to you

Can you hear me say
don't throw me away
There's no way out
I gotta hold you somehow

I wanna, I wanna, I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Everyday, but all I have is time
Our love's a perfect rhyme

I wanna, I wanna, I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Every way and when they set me free
Just put your hands on me

Tonight I see it's just another day without you
That I can't sleep
I give it away, away all for you too
Hear me say, don't throw me away
There's no way out
I gotta hold you somehow
All I wanna do is touch you

I wanna, I wanna, I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Everyday, but all I have is time
Our love's a perfect rhyme

I wanna, I wanna, I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Every way and when they set me free
Just put your hands on me

I wanna, I wanna, I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
But all I have is time
Our love's a perfect rhyme

I wanna, I wanna, I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Every way and when they set me free
Just put your hands on me

How romantic this song is.
Just want to touch you for a brief moments.
Your pretty small hand , your pretty oval face.
Half of a minutes that I also rather.
Just want to touch you.
How pathetic is a person think like this.
"Are you sick of something or are you abnormal ??"
This statement can't prove what I'm.
You're just so beautiful and elegant.
Even though it is impossible to get together and I'm thinking too much of this.
Probability to get to you is 0 or even worse , negative.
Can spend half of a minute to look at you seriously and pleadingly,
I'm enough satisfied. I'm just like a jerk...
So damn shit..==