I still remembered a quite interested conversation with friends last few months.We were having class and it was break time.Suddenly,my mind came across a question - If you were able to have a super power,what kind of super power you would want to have.I asked my friends.They just answered with a few super power like super strength,wind walker,incredibly speeding and etc.I asked others friends,the same question too.They answered - mind reading,flying,intelligence and emotional control skill.I was curious about myself what would I asking about this question.
After the class,I got myself back to my house and did my assignments.When I finished my works,I stared outside of my window and took a look.Pondering about something.Something which was about my life.I wondered what I had done to before until now.I opened my drawer and read back my diaries and albums.In the album,it got my piCtures with my family and friends when I was small.The next page was the latest pictures with my family to a Sweden.I could recall the memories in my brain that moment.Snow flakes fell down on my palm from the clear blue sky,ground was covered with a thick layer of snow.My vision could be only white color- it was winter that time.Whole family included me were very enjoyed the harmony.Eating 3pts beef and glasses of red wine.
Back some more,was the pictures with my friends.Three of us had done something that we would never do in teenage stage of my life.We bought chemical items back to my house and ready to do something smoky.We all went through all the processes and used about an hour to make that thing.We prepared,cooked,wrapped,waited,and ready to ignite.We all recorded the whole scenario of the processes and some crap and funny moments.Those memories with friends could hardly be removed from my minds and still bewitched in the rejoice.We got all the dirt on our hands and legs.Even worse,we got our chemical exploded.
There was a picture that made me sad.I got my heart swell and I never got that repaired well.Emotional recovery from the illness of love could be the hardest thing to do.I captured a picture of you when you were having the same class with me.You would never know I got your picture.How could I be so much pathetic to get your picture in this way? But it was just the way to prevent my secret being discovered- I fell in love with you.The picture captured was when you were paying attention to the class.I never met you ,I never said a 'Hi' to you ,I never knoW you but just it was your name.I had been a little courage to talk to you but I never did it because there was somebody around you.I walked backwards and you were gone.I still stood on the circle that I never ever broke it.Probably I did not have that enough of courage to face you.Your beautiful was uncontrollable appeared in my mind and it would not able to be erased from my head.
Until a day,one of my friend told me that you were leaving.I thought it was joke.A pathetic joke that I ever heard.I bet you were not had any impression about me,neither you wanted to know me or not.But I just did not care.Though,you never had embedded any memories in my head but your smile ,your moves and your voice.I could hardly forget.I never got a tear in my eyes because I must learn how to be strong even though it was really a wasted chance.If I was the one of could have a super power,I wished I could time travel back to the moment that first time I saw you....
Friday, October 15, 2010
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Missed.
When a person is leaving from us to another country or from us, bundles of emotion will be burst out from the deepest of your heart.Most of the people will be sad to know this rueful news,of course, some of them will be frustrated because he or she do not appreciate what they have spend the time with that person.If a stranger had left the country to another,surely, you would be apathetic.However,if a girl that you did not know, she did the same thing as the example shown-I felt a sudden of sadness and a little of penance.I did know her name.I used to notice her when the tuition class took a brief break.Pathetically, I did not meet her officially.
2010 is a challenging year,I have met a lot of things,peoples,foods,places,knowledge and challenges.The only one thing that I never ever met is the girl that I keep noticing.Mid-year of 2010,you brought me alive from the tenderness and emptiness of my heart.She was not any special.She was not that types of girl that I would say the girl was freaking hot- big boobies and nice ass.But,she did turn me on somehow.She was normal to the others but for me,she kind of...good-girl-types.At that moment, I did not think so far because she really looked like an ordinary girl.
Every Tuesday,Thrusday,Friday and Saturday,I would be a little mad for going to tuition center-for learning and...'seeking'.Learning the new knowledge from tutors and 'seeking' for those hot chicks there.Friends and I found a lot of hot chicks with short pants,tight clothes and nice ass and boobies,of course.But,when I had a second,my head would turn to my backside and took a glance at her unconsciously,somehow.Still,I couldn't find any special about her even though I got a little interested in her.
Every Thrusday was my favorite that time-three hours of classes with her.Our distance in class was far but...she seemed to sat at the position where I could really see her clearly without any people blocking me.Maybe I was thinking of too much,though,I did not care.The happiest moment was the take-break-time,standing up and took a glance at the class and she would be leaving the class as I did.Walking by her table,I would stare at her notes,ensuring that she really got paying attention to class.When walking out from the class,she would gather with her friends against the wall,taking my side-glance at her;an uncontrollable feeling surged into my mind-self-highness.[Don't laugh,this is the normal reaction if a guy got a little interested in a girl]
When the break was finished,delaying the time to be last one entered the class and taking this precious-few-seconds to make sure she was in the class and glancing at her.I could not look at her because people would be noticing what-the-heck-are-you-looking-at? expression towards me.Be cool and steady,heading to my table.Class was quite boring after I finished those exercises.So,I got nothing to do except took another glance at her.She was concentrating at her works.The way she looked was..marvelous.She wore a-quite-round-shaped spectacles with pink color of T-shirt and a grey in color of jacket usually because her position in the class was directly to the cold air out from the air-condition.She tied her hair into a ponytail tidily which made me felt she was pretty and elegant.When doing exercises,she would draw her tiny lips inwards and her head would bend slightly in a certain degree.That moment which would drive me insane and liked a phone in low of electricity,recharging to a maximum of percentage of battery.
During Biology class,this class would really make me nervous because we both really sat so damn close if she was still here.She would be different hair styles and looks in the class.Somehow,she would tied her up into a cute,little round shaped,somehow,she would loose her hair down lied on her shoulder.I did not have the courage to turn my head back.Close distance but far gap.Even though how close distance in physical but she would never know who the hell was I on the earth.
Unfortunately,I noticed that she had absent two weeks of class.I got a new from friend that she had moved to another country.How sad,that I did not really meet her officially.DAMN! Friendship could be something special like a twinkling star at sky.Glittering in a dark night;giving a new hope.At least say a "HELLO?" could also be a problem.There could be also an impossible to let you to read this too?
P.S.: Hope you'll be alright at a new place,meeting new people.T.C.
Night , fellows.
2010 is a challenging year,I have met a lot of things,peoples,foods,places,knowledge and challenges.The only one thing that I never ever met is the girl that I keep noticing.Mid-year of 2010,you brought me alive from the tenderness and emptiness of my heart.She was not any special.She was not that types of girl that I would say the girl was freaking hot- big boobies and nice ass.But,she did turn me on somehow.She was normal to the others but for me,she kind of...good-girl-types.At that moment, I did not think so far because she really looked like an ordinary girl.
Every Tuesday,Thrusday,Friday and Saturday,I would be a little mad for going to tuition center-for learning and...'seeking'.Learning the new knowledge from tutors and 'seeking' for those hot chicks there.Friends and I found a lot of hot chicks with short pants,tight clothes and nice ass and boobies,of course.But,when I had a second,my head would turn to my backside and took a glance at her unconsciously,somehow.Still,I couldn't find any special about her even though I got a little interested in her.
Every Thrusday was my favorite that time-three hours of classes with her.Our distance in class was far but...she seemed to sat at the position where I could really see her clearly without any people blocking me.Maybe I was thinking of too much,though,I did not care.The happiest moment was the take-break-time,standing up and took a glance at the class and she would be leaving the class as I did.Walking by her table,I would stare at her notes,ensuring that she really got paying attention to class.When walking out from the class,she would gather with her friends against the wall,taking my side-glance at her;an uncontrollable feeling surged into my mind-self-highness.[Don't laugh,this is the normal reaction if a guy got a little interested in a girl]
When the break was finished,delaying the time to be last one entered the class and taking this precious-few-seconds to make sure she was in the class and glancing at her.I could not look at her because people would be noticing what-the-heck-are-you-looking-at? expression towards me.Be cool and steady,heading to my table.Class was quite boring after I finished those exercises.So,I got nothing to do except took another glance at her.She was concentrating at her works.The way she looked was..marvelous.She wore a-quite-round-shaped spectacles with pink color of T-shirt and a grey in color of jacket usually because her position in the class was directly to the cold air out from the air-condition.She tied her hair into a ponytail tidily which made me felt she was pretty and elegant.When doing exercises,she would draw her tiny lips inwards and her head would bend slightly in a certain degree.That moment which would drive me insane and liked a phone in low of electricity,recharging to a maximum of percentage of battery.
During Biology class,this class would really make me nervous because we both really sat so damn close if she was still here.She would be different hair styles and looks in the class.Somehow,she would tied her up into a cute,little round shaped,somehow,she would loose her hair down lied on her shoulder.I did not have the courage to turn my head back.Close distance but far gap.Even though how close distance in physical but she would never know who the hell was I on the earth.
Unfortunately,I noticed that she had absent two weeks of class.I got a new from friend that she had moved to another country.How sad,that I did not really meet her officially.DAMN! Friendship could be something special like a twinkling star at sky.Glittering in a dark night;giving a new hope.At least say a "HELLO?" could also be a problem.There could be also an impossible to let you to read this too?
P.S.: Hope you'll be alright at a new place,meeting new people.T.C.
Night , fellows.
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