I love your hair smell even though it was just scent of shampoo but it led me to your heart.
I love your eyes even though it was small but it could see through the lies.
I love your nose even though it wasn't sharp but the air you gave out brought my alive.
I love your mouth even though it was simple lips but it reminded me of what I was missing.
I love your ears even though it was normal but it could hear my thought.
I love your cheek even though it was pretty fat but it was the warmest place for me to lay my lips on it.
I love your hands even though it was little but it was the way I could hold your hands to another paradise.
But what was I loving her?
I love you even though you're not utterly perfect but that was the way I loved you. Love blinded me. Love led me to you. And that was my answer.

2/2 or 1/2 or 0 ?

August came, July gone ~
School life is going to end very very soon , about a year left..
Recently, mind confused and disorientated..
The life of a teenager must be included certain part , academy , sport, family , friends, and ....
Maybe I'm thinking too much of these..
Imbalance and unhealthy lifestyle..
But whenever I can see you..I feel..so happy or..stress-less...
Your smile is endearing whenever you're smiling..especially your grin..I can't even deny it but you're not mine , not even meet you officially , though...
Why would a guy will fall in love with a girl who he thinks she is.....PERFECT in his mind...?
ASS HOLE == don't be the pathetic one please...
At least, she can ignite my fire in my heart..maybe it is too...over...but...a girl that you think she is perfect to you..[even though no one is perfect] , those sentences will be blurted out..in your mind?
SHE IS THE ONE !!! Maybe I'm just bluffing..she don''t even know who am I...making a false hope...just erase it...make it blank...

Miserable life stacks with a impossible stuff

Miserable Miserable !
Miserable life [zzzz]
Exam was gone and time to get results and this is the horrible part of exam ==..
Get a good results but..SO WHAT??
Somehow get those marks are...freaking shit out of sense ==..
But just let it go..lazy to argue with that kind bullshit talks and discussions..
Think of that..makes me want to smash all my things..
Mom always say, " Why you always get 7X ?? Try to get more la!!"
WHAT TO SAY?? JUST ??? "....."
This is screwing me up..
PRESSURES...I satisfy of what I have get with..
I can feel the uncountable pounds of pressure pressing on my shoulders and my mind just freak out..
7X? == JUST SCREW ME LA !!
Trying to get peace..
Last week Sunday, you looked so...beautiful and indifferent from the others day..
Maybe it is just a delusional for the others but to me..you totally looked..AWESOME !
We just like...friends but..got nothing to say or to chat about..
Somehow, I wait you to online at MSN but..you rarely to online..
90minutes same class with you and sit back of you..
Observing and reading every movement of you , even though it seems like I'm a pervert..but..it's what a guy react if you found a girl you're interesting..
Different form ; feeling a far cross of distance..==
Feeling myself just like a ...little naive kid talking with a protective sister...
She is totally perfect [ maybe I haven't discover her con's] but I know not everything is perfect..
People say I fell in love with her but I didn't answer..
It is just making a friend with a female...
It is just impossible to deal with a Form5 girl....
Impossible...

Love, No boundaries ??

Your hair is black but fill with a bit brown color at every degree when I see you. Your posture is elegant but fill with a little of open. You wear contact lens but somehow you wear spectacles. You look so gorgeous and nice and simple when the day you wear lens. It doesn't mean that you look not nice when you wear spectacles. Instead, it looks mature and pretty well too. Do not ever judge a book by appearance ?? Guess so. Maybe, just not enough of communication ?? Even chit-chat, got nothing to chat about. Different level talks different things. Just friend. A.......not very close friend. A not very close female friend. I'm just giving myself a tidal waves - it is impossible. It will leave after 3~4 months. So, need not to worry so much. And, telling yourself it could not be. We have a boundary/demarcation between each. Bluffing ~

The All-American Rejects - I Wanna

I never thought that I was so blind
I can finally see the truth
It's me for you

Tonight you can't imagine that I'm by your side
'cause it's never gonna be the truth
so far for you

But can you hear me say
Don't throw me away
there's no way out
I gotta hold you somehow

I wanna, I wanna, I wanna touch you
you wanna touch me too
Everyday, but all I have is time
Our love's a perfect rhyme

I wanna, I wanna, I wanna touch you
you wanna touch me too
every way and when they set me free
Just put your hands on me

Take everything that I know you'll break
and I give my life away so far to you

Can you hear me say
don't throw me away
There's no way out
I gotta hold you somehow

I wanna, I wanna, I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Everyday, but all I have is time
Our love's a perfect rhyme

I wanna, I wanna, I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Every way and when they set me free
Just put your hands on me

Tonight I see it's just another day without you
That I can't sleep
I give it away, away all for you too
Hear me say, don't throw me away
There's no way out
I gotta hold you somehow
All I wanna do is touch you

I wanna, I wanna, I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Everyday, but all I have is time
Our love's a perfect rhyme

I wanna, I wanna, I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Every way and when they set me free
Just put your hands on me

I wanna, I wanna, I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
But all I have is time
Our love's a perfect rhyme

I wanna, I wanna, I wanna touch you
You wanna touch me too
Every way and when they set me free
Just put your hands on me

How romantic this song is.
Just want to touch you for a brief moments.
Your pretty small hand , your pretty oval face.
Half of a minutes that I also rather.
Just want to touch you.
How pathetic is a person think like this.
"Are you sick of something or are you abnormal ??"
This statement can't prove what I'm.
You're just so beautiful and elegant.
Even though it is impossible to get together and I'm thinking too much of this.
Probability to get to you is 0 or even worse , negative.
Can spend half of a minute to look at you seriously and pleadingly,
I'm enough satisfied. I'm just like a jerk...
So damn shit..==

I can still remember the whole thing, If I can turn back time...

I can still remember the whole thing, if I can turn back time I will not repeat the same mistakes that I have done. It was embarrassed and ashamed to say out loud but when I watched the porn video, it reminded me about what we had done. I still could see the shame through your eyes. I was irresponsibility and bad manners about the moves on the bed. Although it was cheap to buy condom at 7-11, it was worthy and useful because it could prevent 'something' horrible happened.

Three months ago, it was a glorious night that we had our sweet things happened. It was 8 o'clock night sharp, I drove to her house with my dad's car to date her out. When I arrived her house, she was gaudy and sexy. Black short dressed with lacy sling suited with dark high heels, looking she would 'eat' me soon like a 'hungry wolf'. She just kind of different today. She totally looked high and desired for sex with me tonight. My heartbeat was increased as she stepped in front of car. Sitting beside of me gingerly. My mind thought of, tonight was a good good night !!!

We went to Sushi Restaurant to have our dinner because you like Japanese food the most. You ordered your favorite, Unagi dinner set and I got my Salmon dinner set. While waiting our order, I kept looking at her eyes. Her gorgeous and attractive eyes were beckoned my attention at all. My vision only consisted of her. Her overlook that night was too awesome. I asked her,why she dressed like that and she didn't reply but just a grin. [Girl's mind is hard to predict and to know]

After we had our dinner, she wanted to go desa park for a stroll. I held her hand and strolled the whole place. It was so sweet that held girlfriend's hand and strolled at a romantic and nice view scene. We sat down at a iron chair together. She lied her head at my shoulder had a rest and we both looked at the view. It was so sweet and sweet that we ever have !!!! Holding her hand and she was lying on my shoulder, enjoying the that moment. [It is so romantic even though it is an imagination =.=]. She turned her head near to my head. Our distance only about 2 inches between each. Looking at her eyes, feeling something was happening. We both closed our eyes and kissed. It was tenderly with starting but soon, rough and rush.

After caressing, she requested to back to my home. Without waiting any second, I drove my car back to my home. My home was no people , thinking of my parents were out. When I closed my door, her hands moved to my chest and turned me towards her. Her sexy eyes told me what she wanted tonight. In that condition, I was just like a sheep which eaten by a hungry tiger soon. No, not tiger, was a wolf. We looked at each and kissed roughly. Lips then ears then neck. I thought of she really desired for a sex tonight.

Then, she pulled me to my room. It was so rude and rushed but it was totally what a couple needed for this moment [perhaps??]. My room was a bit untidy but still 'work' place for us. Air-conditioner switched on, dim light switched on and essential oil spread the whole room. She was devil in disguise on the bed, looking at me. We both eyes met and pulled each on the bed. Caresses and 'move' were acted on both. Be her boyfriend about 8 months, now only I knew her chest were about C. She seemed like very good on bed because she just couldn't let me stop on caressing her. Her lips and necks. Slowly moved to her chest. Some kind of sounds was out from her. Thinking of she was 'high' and being wanted to have 'some more' !!

Our thighs rubbed at each. Slowly from the chest, moving to her stomach and her thighs. She told me not to stop and continue but something weird. That was we hadn't get our clothes off. When I moved to her thighs, she stood up suddenly then she eased off her sling[maybe wrong word] and her whole dress was off , leaving her only 'left'. My heartbeat really pumped surprisingly fast that I never experienced. She sat on my thighs and began took off my top wear. Soon, we were on the bed and touched and licked at both. Even it was disgusting for readers but it was nice and enjoyable. She just couldn't stop what she was doing and what I wanted that she just like read my mind.

She eased her bra but I didn't mean to have real sex with her. The condition was too much of sexual element around us just like air. With her persistence, as her boyfriend I couldn't deny her. But, the consequence was terrible and I couldn't imagine of that. But, with the desire now, I really couldn't deny. She needed me and me too. She undressed of me and her 'left' too. Since we both were still virgin and didn't know about those 'style'. We just caressed with bare body. She kissed my neck...then down and down...I didn't mean to do so. Then she suggest to have sexual intercourse with me. I looked at her stonily. Of what her said just now, I was just totally...stunned !!

Sexual intercourse was so much disgusting for you guys ?? If I posted the process of it..Guess female will surge their feeling with anger and frustration because of I am insulting them..so..following..process..couldn't be so details..By the way..Guys should know all the process and..If I can turn back my time..what would you guys do ?

Fatigue

ZZZZ...
Dizzy...
Chapter 3 of Physics : Pressure ...
It becomes a real life pressure..
Exam soon..Not really have my revision..
Bm..the subject i hate the most...
Just for a damn certificate..* I look down on it *
Feeling to have a nice trip to where else which really mean of "TRAVEL" !
Express out the feeling..
Hope to get an easier life
Hectic life drive a person insane & crazy..
Why the life just seemed so...narrow and pressure..
But I think..I'm not qualify to say "PRESSURE" !
Parents are the shoulders of pressure..
Now are just complaint and complaint..
Anyway..just hope all of the students DO YOUR BEST IN THE EXAM !!!!!